Getting rid of a ghost

I subconsciously ignore the moments I see you smile.

Look away from my phone when your name appears on my dial.

Cringe when I see you in my recently deleted file.

Walk away from you cause I haven't seen you in a while.

It's hurts.

To think that I never got the chance to explore the situation,

Never got to get to the destination.

With you I had no expectations

Or explanations

Of why I wanted to be around you.

I really just wanted to see us through.

I want to be rid of you the way you are of me.

At times I thought I was inadequate

But now it's clearer than day for me to see

That your indecisiveness makes you bound to quit.

Yet, I can't seem to fit

The idea of you and I not together because I would hate to see us apart.

It's like you have played a part from the start

That wired my heart to only draft a spark between you and I.

I want to forget about you the way you have forgotten about me.

I have this facade

That I keep as a guard

Blocking the output of my emotions

But, the devotion I had into putting us into motion

Turned out to damage me more than an explosion

Of sorts, I came to realize you were my last resort to true happiness.

I want to be rid of you but how dare you take my chance of happiness.